Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Not Possible

It simply does not seem possible that I am so happy and ready in one minute and so scared and upset the next. How is it that the greatest blessings and grand realizations of love occur within an hour of petty disturbances to my mental health?

I just don't want to live this way anymore. I don't want to live knowing the Good but accepting the bad every other glance and breath. IT'S NOT POSSIBLE, ALICE! It's just not.

You turned in your capstone today. You are sitting with your beloved hamster as you type. You are full of free cookies. FREE cookies. You have Pookie--the patron saint of baked goods and DVDs and Muff the elixir of true life in the flesh. You have inspiration texts, and a best friend in your diary, and you love to have long runs and think about how wonderful It All Is. No more complaints please. Please?

Calm down and go to bed. This is ridiculous.

Real Stuff:


A List to Keep Me Sane: Excited Fors
-Last day of work in the pub ever tomorrow. Writing my name on the senior wall.
-Watching the Scene Study Final
-Dinner with Kay
-Scary film at Bradley's pad
-Date with the Holy Trinity
-Buying new underwear
-Finally spending extended time with Jamba (breakfast!!!)

Okay? So can it. And sleep. You're not done yet.

2 comments:

KDunt said...

I would like to believe HLibb and I are the holy trinity, if so that is the most wonderful and fantastic name I've ever heard. if not, I'm sad.

AliceOutOfContext said...

No--that's another trio. I think KohHos is a FINE name.