Little Feeling of Freedom

Hunny texted me to ask if I had seen the video Taylor Swift put on her Insta tonight. Apparently she was hosting her best friend's birthday, so she hired a member of Dashboard Confessional to sing an old favorite song of theirs live. The song is "Hands Down"--an old fave of me an Hunny's also. Aw, it's like, their friendship is the same as our friendship. Except for a few million dollars. I went to the Instagram account and immediately remembered why I wasn't following it. Taylor Swift's life in pictures makes me hate mine.

In reality, I'm doing pretty well, and I am generally happy. I wouldn't ask for much to be different right now. I think I'm where I need to be. But...maybe I could have a mansion and hire rock stars for fun and also have very cute blond hair. I KNOW for a FACT, it's not as easy or exciting as it seems in pictures. I KNOW, but it's so hard to believe when all the squares are just so.

Why do I follow any celebrities on Instagram? I guess I figured I liked them so I would like seeing them? But, um, hold on, can we talk about how destructive that is. Waiting for the bus, casually scroll through people way richer and skinnier and "loved" than you. And then go on with your life. It seems like a highly unhealthy way to pass time throughout the day.

I have stopped following all the celebs I did on Instagram. I wondered, "But I want to keep up." With WHAT? I'm going to see the TV Show/movie/hear the record etc. I don't need to see the boats and the trip to Europe and the new headshot with fifty thousand comments. There are other things that are more important! Look at those.

Live!

The world is big. There are craters and skies. There are wood roaches and clover. It doesn't really matter that much what you do. For what?

Mom and me at Meteor Crater in AZ

I bought a map of the moon.

There's a crater with my name on it

and a really good view.

Muse! Concert! Phoenix! 2013!

-brilliant performers in terms of filling a fat stadium with energy

-visual aspects of the show: rad x a milli (lasers whaddup)

-so darn danceable--and dance we did--hop, sway, twirl!

-best song: "Madness" (for singability, technical effects, colors)

-worst song (but honestly still not even that bad): "Liquid State"

-I feel like a part of history now that I've officially watched the lighter evolve into the flashlight app for iPhones

-the line "this ship is takin' me far away/far away from the memories of the people who care if I live or die" is so amazingly romantic in every sense...and live, it made me consider the people who do care if I live or die, which is, like, the point of art

-called my sister during "Supermassive Black Hole" and she texted "SUPER MASSIVE JEALOUS KISSES"

-sound quality: crystal clear

-as always with huge concerts, I wish there was more personability, but Muse tried their best with the thematic set-list, with the friendly retorts, with the stark and sad video footage of our current world

-people always rave about how Muse is da best live band ever, but, like, yeah...they have an extremely valid point

Video Pyramids!

The night was warm! The night was young! Bisque and I drove off to meet with our other concert-goers. Everything was perfect, so I said so. And our windows were down. We approached three people  on foot. "They should know," he said. So I yelled at them. I yelled, "EVERYTHING IS PERFECT." And one yelled back: "Woo!"

How much are you worth?
You can't come down to earth.
You're swelling up, you're unstoppable.