Thursday, April 23, 2020

Things I Still Feel Bad About (Very Partial List)

-Not taking home a few slices of pizza from a bar in 2011. I really don't remember why I didn't just get a to-go box. I think I was full at the time, looking at the pizza, seemed impossible I'd ever eat again.

-Asking in a joking tone in 2009 if a black acquaintance didn't want to stay at the beach too long because he'd get sunburned. He smiled but didn't say anything. I also smiled but didn't say anything. I don't know what he was thinking. My guess was "Was that worth it?" I tried to seem confident, like nothing was wrong, so I probably looked like I was thinking, "I don't like you," but what I was actually thinking was, "That wasn't funny."

-Taking a sharp tone with a friend when she couldn't understand my GPS and we were lost and we had stayed out much later than she said she would at a work function I didn't want to be at--in hindsight I don't know what I didn't want to be there so badly, but I didn't and I did a big old eye roll at her from the driver's seat. 2013.

-Hiding from my sister in a McDonald's Play Place. 1992?

-Not casting a girl in our college improv show because she was too girly. Not having an honest conversation with another who was too uptight. 2007, 2009.

-Telling a very panicked and late woman at the Lakeview red line train station her stop was the other direction. (Realized after she ran off it wasn't, ran after her, couldn't find her.) 2017.

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